1.14am

She will not sleep tonight.
5 minutes ago, she was thinking about the email she has drafted- the email in progress. She thought: should she post it; or send it?
trash it; or revise it further?
keep writing?
too much to say, too much said
not enough?
she thinks about the things she could say that would alienate; how to delineate. would it only aggravate?
silly, silly words.
silly, silly girl who can not figure anything out and is doing only the wrong things while only trying to do right
she is thinking now about the incredibly bad writing she is doing.
wrong (and still only trying to do right)
and it seems, as it always does, to get all tangled up and torn apart.

please call me